In the busy everyday life and the long to-do lists, we sometimes end up loosing ourselves and become part of the "rat race".

I come from a small town and a regular family. I had a great example of happy marriage, successful career and great circle of friends. I've been thought that I need to excel in everything I do and so I  did - best in my class, sports, dancing, languages, you name it...

After university graduation, while a lot of my friends were settling down and getting married, I decided that I want more from life. I moved abroad (thinking it's going to be for 1.5 years). Now 12 years later, I'm still abroad and on a journey to come back to myself and my happiness.

I've strived to "have it all". I worked hard to build a career. I've travelled more than ever before. I made a huge network of acquaintances. At the end I got married and I have an amazing daughter. But somewhere during that rollercoaster I lost myself...

One would have said that I shall be happy. I couldn't and shouldn't ask for more as I already have a career (I earn more than most of my friends), family, friends. How come I am unhappy?

Well, truth is I've been unhappy for a very long time so long that I can't even say when it started. 7 years ago I also started with different health problems - miracle for the school medicine as I was still in my twenties and nobody could say what I have neither why. Now looking back I realize it was most probably my body giving me signals that I need to slow down, take a break and take more care of myself. But I didn't pay attention to that, I kept pushing and I kept going.

7 years and few surgeries later, at a point where I was according to school medicine deeply depressed I've decided that I need a break and a change. Earlier this year I took 3 weeks break from everything and went for a rehab (also due to my last surgery). And this was the start of a "new beginning" when I realized I've been pushing the gas pedal for way too long, so my engine was already at the edge and I need to press the break.

I've done a lot of alternative therapy since then and now half a year later I'm finally starting to feel better - physically and emotionally. Just when I was thinking that there's no hope for me because I had it all and was still unhappy and not knowing what I want from life, I met a great therapist who's supporting me to come back to me and open my hear to myself again, so I can lead a happy life.