It's been a quiet month for my blog mostly because I felt overwhelmed with everything going on lately. But it has also been a month of a lot of emotions, breakthroughs, and enlightenments if you wish.

I'll start my sharing with all of you with the emotions. The month started with the relief of the divorce and the feeling of freedom but suddenly turned into a rollercoaster of doubt, fear, and regret. Although I know that it was the right decision, at some point when things started getting "real" an unexpected feeling of regret came in and tried to settle in.

Talking to friends who went through a similar situation, let me tell you - it's normal. We shall not be too harsh on ourselves. It's a big change in one's life and sometimes we may even idealize it a bit until reality kicks in. When you start the practicalities of splitting things and wondering what to do with common presents, pictures, etc.. a sudden hurricane of emotions comes in.  Be true to yourself would be my advice for anyone in doubt! Apart from the classical and alternative therapies I've visited in this time, what helped is listening to that inner voice reminding me it's all going to be okay and that it was the right decision even if at times it doesn't look that way.

In one of those moments throughout the month while trying to understand and overanalyze the situation I've also come to understand that so far I've been mostly attracted to "unavailable" men - emotionally or generally unavailable. One of the reasons for past breakups has been the other side's unavailability. And that's a valuable lesson out of this break up as well. I consider this to be a type of "childhood trauma". My dad was in my opinion at least emotionally unavailable. I know he loved me (as well as my brother and mother), but somehow he rarely showed any emotions. I respect that of course, but until recently I haven't put thought in how that and my relationship with him has affected my romantic life. Now moving forward I'm aware of it and I'll consciously consider it when entering into a new romantic relationship.

In conclusion, this past month has been a journey of emotions, self-discovery, and growth. It's been a quiet time for my blog, largely because I've been grappling with the overwhelming nature of recent events. Divorce is a significant life change, and sometimes, we may idealize the notion of it until the practicalities and complexities set in. As I close this chapter and look ahead, I carry with me the wisdom gained from this period of introspection. I'm optimistic about what the future holds, confident that these experiences will serve as stepping stones toward a healthier, more fulfilling romantic life. Thank you for sharing in this journey with me, and I look forward to the adventures that lie ahead on this path of self-discovery and growth.