Life, with its unpredictable twists and turns, has a way of leading us down unexpected paths. Sometimes, those journeys can be filled with joy and happiness, but at other times, they may be marked by heartache and despair. It is during these moments of darkness that hope emerges as a guiding light, leading us toward the possibility of finding happiness again.

I'm now one step closer to reaching the other end of the bridge and finally being a free single mom. Divorce, like any major life change, is a journey filled with emotional turbulence or as I call it a rollercoaster. It marks the end of a chapter, yet it also opens the door to new possibilities and a chance for rediscovery. Between the complexity of desires and the whirlwind of emotions, there lies a glimmer of hope for a happier and more fulfilling life.

I've been reflecting lately on the complexity of the soul and the natural feeling of being overwhelmed by a mix of emotions. One may experience relief from a toxic relationship, but at the same time, it comes with feelings of sadness, guilt, and uncertainty. I've been trying to acknowledge these complex desires without judgment. Embrace the fact that it's okay to feel conflicting emotions. Allow me to grieve for what is lost while also being open to the possibilities that lie ahead.

As I navigate through the process and feel almost as if I'm post-divorce, I'm taking time to reconnect with myself. I'm back to exploring my passions, interests, and social life that I have been overlooking during the marriage. Trying to rediscover the person I was before the relationship, the person I have become through the experiences of marriage and divorce, and most importantly the person I want to be post-divorce and the life I wish for myself.

I'm learning to be patient with myself as healing takes time and the process of divorce leaves emotional scars. I'm using the pain as my catalyst for growth and embracing what I learned from the past. This is also a journey and it's filled with ups and downs. While I feel more in the flow now, I can't stop questioning the complex desires that arise in me when thinking of my future happy life. And it's a battle of rational and emotional. A process of rebuilding relationships with family and friends, but also coming back to myself and rebuilding the connection with me. I wish to think I'd take all the lessons I've learned and carry them with wisdom, but then I catch myself dreaming of the warmth of an after-work hug and the harmony of a happy loving relationship.

While I understand healing takes time, in those moments I'm trying to embrace the hope, the one reminding me that happiness is still within reach. I look forward to new beginnings, I spend time envisioning the life I desire, reflecting, and creating my vision board so I can start taking small steps toward making it a reality. Hope can be a powerful motivator, pushing one to strive for a happier and more fulfilling life.

To you out there reading my blog, divorce is undoubtedly a challenging chapter in life, marked by complex desires and a range of emotions. However, despite the difficulties, there is hope. Embrace the opportunity for self-discovery, healing, and growth. Recognize that you have the power to shape your future and find happiness once more. The journey after divorce may be unpredictable, but with hope as your compass, you can navigate through the uncertainties and create a life that brings you joy and fulfillment. Remember, the end of one chapter is often the beginning of a new, beautiful story waiting to unfold.