Divorced at last! Yesterday was the day of the official divorce and it was almost smooth. It has proven to me again that it was the right choice!

It was a mix of emotions difficult to put into writing. Although the day started smoothly, the anxiety was growing as the clock was thinking. The appointment itself wasn't anything remarkable, but it was a good test for my self-control. My inside wanted to scream and shout "Please make it fast and get me out of this nightmare". The judge was taking things slowly though. There were a few moments when I thought things would not go the way I hoped they would, but keeping calm and sticking to the facts has helped a lot. A tap on my shoulder for not letting emotions out despite the few triggers!

I'd love to be able to say here's to a new chapter of my life, but reality is still different. We're now finally officially divorced with no option for revocation which is a huge relief as now I can finally be myself and not play hundreds of scenarios in my head about the other side's reaction. Yet he's still living at home until he finds a place nearby and things haven't changed that much yet. Now it's yet another deadline to look forward to while enjoying at least partial freedom.

In the meantime, I'm trying to celebrate the big and small wins. I had a peaceful sleep knowing one of the most challenging parts was behind me. I'm planning the schedules on my own and not worrying about potential scandals. I've left a few "buttons" in the agreement to be used in case I've been pressured by my ex-husband in any way. All of that is because of thorough internal work. I've worked on myself, my traumas, and my emotions so I can face the obstacles calmly and look at the facts instead of being led by emotional decisions and reactions.

For those of you out there who might be at a crossroads as well, my only advice is "Jump!". Do the first step! I know it's scary, but looking back you'll see it's easier than you thought.  As Henry Ford once said, " Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your dream!"